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I dream of a world, where I can wake up and walk outside and all I hear is the birds in the trees.
A world where children are told “Yes you can” and aren’t raised from broken families.
Where when a person stumbles and falls, loses their grace, and drops, they’re greeted by the hands of one thousand human beings, and time stops.
They look among each other and all they see is beauty.
They look among each other and all they see is pure love blooming.
They look among each other and all they see is human.

Mom I’m So Sorry

Hey Mom.  It’s been a while since we had a heart to heart.  I just wanted to tell you how much I really love you.  I admire everything about you, and will forever look up to you.  That being said, I’m so sorry for who I am.

I know I shouldn’t be.  You think I’m awesome,  but it’s just not true.  I’m not here.  I’m physically here, but my spirit is long gone and many generations forgotten.  It is so hard to go on.  I look at myself with a hatred that I haven’t seen in a long time.  My fingers are shaking while I type this.

Mom I’m sorry that I haven’t gone to college yet.  It’s so damn expensive.  It’s so hard for me to imagine a future blocked by thousands and thousands of dollars that are so unobtainable for me.  It’s this wall that is so hard for me to even imagine climbing.  Mom I’m sorry I hate everything.  God, this passionless life of mine is consuming me whole.  My void has become more strong, and it seems to linger in my footprints as I walk. 

Mom, I’m so sorry that this is what your little boy turned into.  I’m so fucking sorry that I’m me.

Currents

These waves crash while the water fills my lungs,
No plank to float on, my body is going numb.
Carried to the depths of the trenches so deep,
I’m dying inside, yet why do I weep?
My life is so good, I’m healthy, I’m whole,
My body is young, I’m strong and I’m bold.
My heart is so heavy, from the loved ones who’ve hurt,
My feet are so sturdy, carrying me on this Earth.
Yet my mind takes a dive, into titans of waves,
And drowns my emotions, where nobody can save.

Ask the Yeti

This is going to be something simple that I hope you guys get involved in. 

I want to answer questions/concerns/general comments that you have for me.  I’ll do my best to help get you an answer to whatever question you may have. 

I’ve been dying to hear from my readers, so please comment anything :)!!!

Stay classy!

BADUMP

For heartbeats are shouts in the dark, screaming for love, for lust, for acceptance.
One day they hear an echo,  and repeat themselves in mere circumstance.
“Hello?” The heart screams as the pulse steadies.
“I’m here now.” The whisper from the darkness replies as it doubles in pulse.
Together, in harmonious chaos do two hearts beat in unison.